1st Pregnancy

Sunday, February 19, 2006

So Sweet..

So sweet of my hubby to go all the way to Siglap area just to buy for me a cake. A few weeks ago my friends and I went to cheesecake cafe on a Sunday but it was closed. So sweet of my hubby to remember the location of the cheesecake cafe & to remember I really wanted to eat a cake from that shop. Hmmmmm I love him so much.

I still remembered clearly how I found out that I am pregnant. It was a Saturday morning on 14th January 2006. I went to a clinic to find out what was wrong with me. I felt so tired, nausea and lost my appetite. The doctor said that I may be pregnant and wants to check my urine. I told him I can't be pregnant because I missed my period for about 3 months. True enough ... I am positive. I am pregnant. I was shocked. I kept quiet. I did not show any expression of happiness. There was no expression from my face. I was confused. Of course I want to have a baby but how can I be pregnant when I missed my period. I was having mix feelings. Thinking how can it be possible, how shall I break the happy news to my hubby and what if the doctor was wrong. The doctor was worried with my reaction that he kept on consolling me even when I am waiting for my medication.

I decided to tell my hubby after he's back from work. I want him to come along with me to see the gyne on 17th January 2006. He called me a few times while he was working. I told him that I have a surprise for him when he's at home. I thought he would be at home by 4pm but he got to work overtime till 7.30pm. When I told him I have a surprise for him, he kept on guessing that I went shopping. It was difficult for me to control my mouth. I don't want to blurt out.

While waiting for him to come back, I typed a note saying that "We are having a virgo baby". I put a chair beside the main door and I placed my huge Moshi Maro and the note slot into it's heart shapped pillow. I cannot stop imagining how will his reaction be.

The doorbell rang. He was at the door looking very tired. He looks as if he had a bad day. Usually I will leave him alone & be out of his sight when he is in that kind of mood. I will let him have a piece of mind. But on this day it was different. I welcome him home and when he saw the note he asked what's this. He read and asked is this true. I immediately hugged him and tears of joy rolling on my cheeks. I whispered "Are you happy?" He said yes and he looked into my eyes. We hugged for awhile infront of the main door and later I told him I've arranged appointment with the gyne.

We were so happy. We've been waiting for the good news for 2.5 years. And the day finally came. During the 2nd year of marriage, I thought I can never be pregnant. I was planning to adopt a baby when I'm 35. I almost give up or maybe I have given up. During those years I really follow doctors advice - to relax & not to be stressed out, take care of my diabeties and have sex more often. Another reason why I was pessimistic was because the gyne suspect that I am a polycystic ovarian. In the past, it was difficult for women like to be pregnant. But with latest research the doctors found out that there is a drug which can help women like me. Women out there who are in the same situation as mine. Do not give up. Go to a few hormone doctors for opinion and choose a gyne you trust. It was not easy mentally but it was worth trying. Everything is destined, we just have to keep on trying.