1st Pregnancy

Thursday, August 17, 2006

How has it been as a mummy?

My darling Fa'iz,

A few people asked me how's life like being a mummy. When I was pregnant a few people told me life as mummy is tougher than being pregnant. So far motherhood life is okay. I think I am coping well. Grandma helps to cook and do laundry when daddy not around. When daddy around we are on our own. I do walk around in and out of the house. I am not stationed on the bed all the time. I know some people insist that I must stay on the bed all the time but I can't. I don't like to confined. I haven't even start doing the urut because I prefer to wait for the wound to completely heal. The doctor had removed the stitches because being diabetic I need more care. I have to see him again in one weeks time. Yesterday I had to drop by the clinic because the plaster came off. The doctor decided I need not use the plaster anymore. It is better to let the wound exposed to the open air.

When daddy works morning shift, grandma insist she sleeps with you. She worried that you will wake daddy up. But when daddy not working or works afternoon shift, you will sleep with us. I will wake up almost every hour to check if you are okay. It is fine with me. Anyway I only need 4 to 5 hours sleep per night. Daddy will only wake up when I really need his help. For example when I half way feeding you and I really need to go to toilet. Daddy will wake up with no complaints .. Alhamdulillah.

Day time you are always by my side. I do some housework when you are asleep. In the morning when you want me to carry you, I will use my right hand to do some facial for myself. Multi tasking. But it's okay. I am used to multi tasking. Only problem I did not get to take my medication on time which makes my glucose level haywire. I will talk to the doctor to let me switch to tablets soon. Having to inject myself and handling you at the same time is not easy. Especially now where my tummy is still very tender.

I do miss being pregnant. I miss you kicking me from inside me. But I would say pregnancy life is much more horrible than motherhood life. Being a mother is tiring but not as bad as being pregnant. During pregnancy I feel tired, lifeless, sensitive itchy skin, cramps here and there, vomit everyday and not being able to walk too much.

Now being a mother and with the healing wound, I feel more energetic. Happier. So I guess every woman have different views. So mine is pregnancy life is horrible and I love being a mother.

Love you my baby

*Smooch*
Mummy