Friday, March 03, 2006

Perseverance..determination..

Dear Baby,
Yesterday was a fine day. I taught Primary 1 kids Touch Typing in a school somewhere in Ang Mo Kio. I feel fine but feel tired during class and Iwas panting when I walk to 3rd floor. During class I just had to sit down every few minutes. Am not sure why I feel tired. Maybe due to pregnancy thing or maybe due to the new in soles your darling daddy bought for me. I reached home about 5pm and ate some Malay cakes for dinner. At night I don't feel tired. Daddy way out whole day. After working morning shift he went swimming and after that go for remedial training. Poor daddy is so stressed up about remedial training and passing his IPPT. He will be busy for the next 3 weeks. Daddy came back about 10pm. We watched a show together and went to sleep. I had sleepless nights for the past few days. Every night before I sleep, I prayed and I hope I can sleep well for the whole night.

Today I have no class. Woke up at 6.15am to say goodbye to daddy. Watch syarahan & news and slept at 7.30 and woke up at 10.30am. I felt better earlier part of the day. I went to the kitchen I don't smell anything stinks. I've been avoiding the kitchen for 5 days because I don't like the smell. Since I feel fine today, I wash the dishes and steam some pau for myself. When I almost finish washing the dishes I can smell something stink again. I perserver and control my nausea. Daddy will be back at 8pm he got to work overtime for today. After that I fold the clothes. It was a huge heap! I did not fold any clothes for almost 4 days. Out of sudden I feel giddy. I force myself to finish folding the clothes and lie down on my bed. Check my glucose level and blood pressure but everything was fine. So to distract myself from giddiness and nausea, I typed this blog. Usually daddy will help me with housework whenever he feels like it. Nowadays he's busy with RT & work so I understand. I try not to bother him too much.

If you notice I kept on persevering and forcing myself when I feel nausea or giddy. I am doing this hoping that you will have determination, perseverance and willing to go through any hard life. I don't you to give up easily. I just want you to keep on trying on whatever you are doing. If you tried but it still doesn't work for you. Maybe it is fated or you might have done a mistake or overlook something while trying to achieve it. So don't give up and always access yourself. It is important to ask for opinion and be open to suggestions. You must know how to express yourself. Do not keep everything in your heart and be depressed about it. It is unhealthy.

I think by now you know that mummy is diabetic. Daddy is healthy but he have thalessamia. It is not a big problem but some thalessemia carrier feel tired easily. So far daddy is fine. Mummy was diagnosed diabetic when I was 26 years old (year 2000). I did not took care of myself at first because I don't find the need. Until I met Dr L Koh. He talked to me about it and when I am pregnant, I started to be more careful. Some of the days I test my glucose level 7 times a day! Got to jab myself with insulin twice a day. So now my glucose level is well control because I want you to be healthy.

I found out that am suffering from polycystic ovarian in Sept 2001. At first my period did not stop since February 2001. I went to a GP in April & in June thing is wrong with me. In Sept it still flowing. I insisted he GP to ask her husband, who is a surgeon, to scan me & check the lump. Her husband said probably it a cyst and could be cancerous. I was rushed to a private hospital and that's when I met my gyne Dr KK Chow for the first time. He checked and saw a lot of polyps. I removed the polyps and send to the lab for test. Good news it was not cancerous and I am fine. Only problem my eggs does not ovulate even when my menses is regular. He gave a few types of medication and it doesn't work for me. I continue for check ups even when I am married. There was once daddy accompany me for check up. The doctor told me to get married asap because he worried when I get older the chances of me having a baby will be slim. After the check up I and daddy when to Botanic Gardens. I burst into tears. I finally told him what the doctor said. I told him I don't want him to marry me just because of wanting a baby. I got to face the consequences. I told him even if we get married, I might not be able to give him a child.

From that day, I still date daddy. I am mentally prepared that I maybe barren. I talked to him about adopting a child if he still wants to marry me. He said we see how it goes. So I just let the days goes by. If I am not wrong somewhere in October 2002 daddy told me that your grandfather wants us to get married. I was confused. I told your Aunty Hawa and she said your daddy was the right one. She prefer daddy compared to any other guys. We got engaged and married. After getting married I still go to the gyne for check up. I did not give up eventhough I am mentally prepared to adopt a child. The gyne asked me to see a doctor from a general hospital to treat my diabeties. My gyne found out from a new medical breakthrough that a diabetic medication can help polycystic ovarian sufferers. I went to see a diabetic specialist but my gyne still not satisfied with her prescription. He recommended Dr L Koh early 2005. Dr L Koh gave me medication to help my diabeties and also polycystic ovarian problem. After a few months my condition improve but my period still not regular. I started Elken products which can help me have balance nutrition and fertility. And guess what... in December I am pregnant. Now you are in my tummy.

I write about this is just to tell you what I had gone through. We can be mentally prepared for the worst but we must not give up. For 2 years I tried to be healthy and for 3 years I am trying to have you. So things don't come easily. We have to work for it the right way.

Love you baby...
Mummy

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Wednesday, March 01, 2006

2nd phase RT

Hi baby,
Mummy wants daddy to contribute in this blog too. It has been a while that I wrote a full sentence/ paragraph. So here it goes. We did this blog so that you can understand what mummy went through during her 9 month pregnancy carrying you around in her womb at the same time this will answer your future questions like , "Where does baby come from?" "What is a Foetus?" or "Where mummy and daddy first meet". Talking about love at first sight. Mummy meet daddy at Meridien Hotel on 13th December 2001. It was my best friend's wedding . Mummy would be proud if I remember the date. We got engaged on the . . . . . . oh yah on 29th December 2002. We solemnise on the 21st June 2003 after Asar and we went to Australia for our honey moon just mummy and daddy, you're not in the picture yet. I'll better list all the dates that need to be remember before I forgot or mummy will hem.. you know what I mean. Got our first motorcycle on 31st Dec 2003. Mummy's Birthday 26March, Daddy's 23 August and yours would likely be Sept. We almost bought a car just a day before we know we're pregnant. Something tell me that the car can wait. I was in a daze and proud and happy and lots more emotions comes thru me when mummy broke the news that she's pregnant. I'm going to be a father! Wow father. So excited. That's why we're talking to you thru mummy's tummy now. By this time you can hear a mellow sound of us speaking. I don't know if you understand but I did sometimes sing a prayer to you. I always kiss mummy and you before I go to work. I have to kiss mummy all over her face before I can kiss you. I'ts ok. I'll kiss you all over when you're born and mummy too. Mummy loves you so much that before she eats she will think if it is safe for you. Since her pregnancy she has a new habit. Whatever food I eat she want you to taste it too. Ok then It's 2am in the morning, I should get some sleep before going to work later.

By the way daddy don't have the time to read the books we bought. I've been busy with work and RT(Residential Training,this is where combat personal like me go for execise to keep fit hehehe daddy over weight) that's why I've not finish reading those books I bought. Will finish reading it soon. (If I didn't finish it, am sure mummy will update you in 6 mths time) Time to sleep....ZZZZZZzzzzzzz

Love you always,
Daddy

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Tuesday, February 28, 2006

First vibrations...

Hmmm it's been a while I've updated. Been unwell & not in the mood to update the blog. Hubby requested I change they way I type. So today will be slightly different. I will update the blog for the baby to read. It will be like writing a letter to my baby. So friends who read my blog.. please bear with the kemaruk pregnant couple hehehehe.

Dear Sweety,
Yesterday I felt your first tickle. In the morning I did some stretching. I followed instructions from a pregnancy book. After stretching I rested for 5 minutes. Out of sudden I felt butterflies bellow my belly button. It was very ticklish that I laugh. Later when daddy comes back from his night shift work, he did his daily routine. After he clean himself and breakfast and I will accompany him to bed. He kissed my tummy and talked to my tummy. Actually he was talking to you. While he was talking to you, I felt the sensation again. I quickly put his hand under my belly button and daddy was shocked to feel the strong vibrations. I kept on laughing because it was so ticklish.

In the afternoon daddy went to make some Elken delivery for mummy. You daddy's aunty ordered Spirulina & Esther C for her daughter. Daddy is very kind to help mummy deliver elken orders when mummy cannot ride on the bike with daddy. He did everything himself. Late afternoon, mummy felt as if I am going to faint. Uncle Mizi was around but I don't want to bother him. He was about to leave our house, I get out of my bed and about to ask him to stay for awhile because my condition getting worst, daddy came back home. I was relieved. Told daddy how I felt and I ate a banana. I felt better after that. Maybe because mummy ate too little. By evening, I felt so much better and I watched my favourite show 'Dia'.

Baby you make daddy & mummy very happy. You are the light of our life. You are 12 weeks 6 days today. Can't wait to see you eventhough mummy scared to go through the delivery. We will be okay right? Below are the books I read to prepare myself for pregnancy & taking care of you. Daddy read the books too... but most of the time he looks at the pictures hahahahaha...

Love you,
Mummy

Mummy bought this book at Popular bookstore. This book is about taking care of a baby. Like when to start feeding, kinds of check up, what changes or learning experience you will have every month etc

This book teaches how to be a great person and how to succeed in your school life. It points out a lot of mistakes made by parents. By the way daddy bought this book.

Daddy bought this book together with 501 ways to boost your child's success in school. This is a very good book. It is not only about how to play with you. It is also about taking care of you, communicating, feeding, bedtime and much more. I always refer to this book when I need to plan your room, your clothing etc

This book mummy bought it after I got married. This is just to prepare myself for pregnancy. I refer to this book when I need to know the changes in my body and your development physically. Whenever I feel sick, I will check if it is normal during pregnancy. This book also scares mummy of the labour. The pictures are scary. It shows long needles and women in pain. But it is a good book. I will not know what is going on in my tummy if I don't have this book. This is the book daddy finish in 15minutes... just by looking at the pictures hahahahha but he reads the book after every gyne visit. We will compare your picture & the picture in the book to find out more about the changes.

This book daddy bought it at the nearby provision shop. Yes... daddy is kiasu! This book is about childcare centres, nursery, kindergartens & extra classes. Daddy bought for me so that I can choose the best school for you. We intend to send you to school when you are 18mths. But is all depends on the situation. I want to you to make friends in school and learn more things. I really hope you will like to go to school. Anyway, mummy promised daddy that mummy will not work untill you are 2 years old. That is when you will stop breast feeding. And I will give you and daddy my full attention.

This is a malay book. It is about how to take care of mummy during pregnancy & after delivery. It cointains list of names too. But the best thing about this book are the doa'. Mummy try to read the doa for you regularly so that you will grow up as a good Muslim.

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