1st Pregnancy

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Mummy's first Mother's Day

Dear Fa'iz Hilman,

Thank you for the wonderful card and flowers. I would to thank daddy too for helping you make the card and buy the flowers. I would say this is one of the best gift I ever had because it is done by you and daddy. I always appreciate handmade things.

Early in the morning on Mother's Day daddy brought you out. I thought it was a normal routine that you and daddy buys newspaper at a nearby shop. Both of you were away longer than usual. I didn't call daddy because I know he likes to read newspaper downstairs or at nearby coffeeshop. When both of you are back, I was getting ready to send you to tumble tots. I saw daddy meddling with some papers and he looked so serious. I did not want to intrude. I let him be.. (also takut kena marah hehehehe).

When I am ready, I get out of my room and daddy quickly wish me Happy Mother's Day. I was shocked. I smiled and actually getting sentimental :P Then I saw the flowers and card on the table. I picked it up and look at the card. It was handmade and it was very nice. Finally I have your handprint.. thanks to daddy. I read the wonderful words and I almost cried (sentimental lagik...) I thanked daddy and told him that I really love it and appreciate it. To avoid being teased by daddy..I pretend to laugh. Daddy always teased me when I am sentimental :P

I really love this purple flower. I find it very beautiful. Whenever I eat at the dining table I will admire this flower.

Hilman this is your handprint at 9months 2weeks.

The bouquet and card.

The Mother's Day wish.

Your pic comes with the card.

Hilman looks as if he is living in a fish tank heheheheh

I have not been blogging for awhile because I've been busy with finding a job, going for interviews, daddy busy with his test, daddy busy with work and we have a few family events we had to attend. There will be some changes in our lives. Mummy will start work on 21st May 2007. I have to go to work to improve our family income. I am really sorry that I have to let a maid to take care of you. But I have no choice. Mummy also feels that I am not suitable to be a homemaker. Mummy never do housework at all before getting married. So being a homemaker really gives me a lot of stress. Luckily after I have you in my life, I feel happier and have less stress. Mummy always hug you and talk to you about happy things when I am sad or stressed up. You are the motivator for me to live this life. Another reason I have to work is that I want to save up money for your education and also your grandfather going to retire soon. I believe he will need more help for his daily needs. And hopefully by going to work I will have myself confidence back and lead a happy life. I did a lot of praying to Allah swt before taking this big step. I asked him to show me the path and at the same time I put in a lot of effort in changing our life. I leave everything to Him to decide. All the changes will not happen without His blessings. I find that everything falls in place nicely. I got a job on Wednesday and surf the net to look for a maid. At the first look I feel comfortable with the maid. I called up and she said the maid may not be available for me and offered a different maid. I was upset. Later she calls again saying that she can let me have a maid if I can place a deposit today. I rushed to Ming Arcade with you. All settled and we can have the maid soon. Next week daddy will take care of you. Daddy will be at home with you during the day. I will try to come back from work as soon as I can.

Mummy's job is 5 days a week but there are days where I am required to work in the evenings and weekend. Mummy also have to take a few exams for salary increment. Pray for mummy's success okay. I have to stop now because you have woken up from your sleep.

Love you my dear son.