1st Pregnancy

Saturday, March 11, 2006

MILK!!!

Dear Sweet Baby,

Last night at about 3am something weird happened to mummy. Mummy woke up at 2.45am to go to toilet and tried to sleep again. But out of sudden I felt hungry. So i grab a packet of biscuits. Daddy woke up and ask if I want him to buy anything. I told him it's okay since he has to work in the morning. So I continued to eat my 3rd biscuit. Out of sudden I imagine a lake was filled with milk and the milk is falling from a small waterfall. I begin to imagine what if tomorrow there's no food for me and I associate food to milk. Actually I have not been drinking milk for 4 days because I always forgot to buy it. I try to control myself. Out of sudden tears rolled on my cheek. I still try to control myself not to wake daddy up. But the picture of the lake filled with milk keep on playing in my mind. I cried even more. Finally I woke daddy up and told him I really want to drink milk. Daddy went to 7 eleven which is one bus stop away. When he came back I apologize for waking him up. I told him about the lake filled with milk and so on. He chuckled and kiss my tummy. He said it's the baby who wants the milk. He said he also overlook about buying milk. After I drank almost half litre and enjoying every bit of it, I tried to sleep. Unfortunately I can't sleep because I kept on imagining the lake filled with milk and I kept on smiling by myself. A smile of pleasure. Usually I never behave this way about food, drink or anything on earth. I find it very weird of me to behave this way.

Two days ago daddy's family drop by. One of your cousin was taken care by a maid while her mother works during the day. While she was sitting down she kept on saying bibik a few times to herself. At that time the maid has not arrived. Bibik refers to her maid. Later when her mother calls her while she was playing with the maid, the little cousin who is about 2 years old just ignored her mother. After everybody left our house, daddy spoke to me in a concerned voice about your cousin. I listened and after that daddy began to talk to you. He talked to you for longer period that usual and keep on kissing you. I can't really hear what daddy said. But for sure I can hear "Mummy will take care of you ok." I smiled. I understand daddy's concern. Today I promised daddy that I will take care of you even if we ever have a maid. I can see daddy felt very relief. From this episode, I would say daddy loves you very much and I am enjoying every moment your daddy becomes more lovable each day.

With All My Heart
Mummy

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Friday, March 10, 2006

A Happy Day!

Hi my darling baby,

Mummy woke up at 6.15am because daddy got to go to work. I woke daddy up and I still submerged myself on the bed. Yes I am dead tired! Usually mummy will wave goodbye to daddy at the door but today mummy salam your daddy on the bed and daddy kissed you while I am still on the bed.

It is normal for mummy to feel tired every Friday and I will feel tired until Sunday. It's all because on yesterday's class. Yesterday's class was extended 30mins. So in total i teach non stop for 3 hours & I have to prepared the lab for 30 mins all alone. My assistant came in late yesterday. Just picture yourself comes in the school and walk up to the 3rd floor of an old building, went into the lab & bending up & down to switch on 40 computers. Run one more round again to login & start the program. Primary 1 kids comes in you teach and when they start typing you have to inspect them up & down for 30 mins to make sure they use the correct fingers and yesterday I have to repeat the process 6 times! So what I am trying to say if you decide to be a trainer please make sure you check the schedule before signing the contract. Mummy was told about this crazy 5 class schedule last minute. Initially the company promised only 2 hours training with breaks. Now it's 5 classes training every 30mins with no breaks. This is my 2nd assistant trainer. My first assistant trainer gave up because she find it too tiring.

Besides the tiring day, I had a wonderful evening. Last night daddy's family pay a visit. Maybe they know I don't go out alone and at night since I am pregnant so they came to keep me company. Tok Hassan, Nenek Junaidah, Uncle Nazri, Aunty Raudhah, Uncle Mizi, Aunty Nadiah, Aunty Nadia cute 5 year old niece Fina, Uncle Fendi, your cousin Zarfhan and Azza was here! Oh! later Uncle Fendi parents Tok Yusof and Nenek Safiah join us. So our house was filled with people and noise. I love the noise. Mummy ordered 2 extra large, 2 regular pizza and 3 garlic bread. And only have 2 pieces on pizza left! I feel happy whenever not much food is wasted. What I enjoyed most is watching the children. Daddy has arranged the living room when you will have a big space to play. So last night all the children played at that area. The kids danced, roll on the floor and do all sorts of activities there. It was fun watching that I forgot that I am tired. And this morning when I woke up my body aches terribly. And I was also happy because daddy came home early. I can feel my face lift up immediately. I really miss daddy at home. Everybody left about 11pm. Aunty Ita and Uncle Badar came to pick up their kids, Zarfhan and Azza.

After everybody left mummy and daddy quickly lock the door, have a bathe again and go to bed. Daddy complained of aches around his leg. I helped to put Yoko Yoko for him. Daddy always have aches after RT or IPPT. After that I did the daily ritual before daddy goes to sleep. Hahahahah you will know what is it. It's like I already have a baby to put to sleep every night. Soon both of us was fast asleep.

Hmmmm you may notice that I did not mention much about my family. Tok Shaini passed away 5 years ago and Nanny Fatimah(Kalsom) passed away 9 years ago. When I got married my parents were not around. Uncle Kip be the wali. My siblings live far away from our house and they are always busy with activities. It's either my siblings are busy with work or your cousins are busy with extra class. Well that's life of my family.. work .. study... work ... study. But we are still close and have fun when we meet. I will tell you more about my family next time.

*Smooch*
Mummy

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Wednesday, March 08, 2006

Working life

Hi baby,

Mummy very bored today.I have a lot of school things to do but am just not in the mood. Maybe because I miss daddy. He's been busy with RT & today he to soccer for his workplace soccer match. I have not been spending so much time with him but I got to understand his situation. He got a life to carry on. His RT will be over in 3 weeks time and I just got to be patient at the moment. I am not complaining but I need to tell you about this because daddy will have to serve the nation and pass his IPPT until he is in his 40's. So you will notice that he will be away for a few weeks in a year.

Whenever I feel this way, I miss my fulltime job. But it's my choice for choosing my life now. Now am doing part time training so that I can spend more time with daddy. Daddy works 3 shift. But still our schedule is very tight. Whenever am at home he may have activities to do and when am in class he may be at home. Just imagine if I work full time. I might see him every 3 days only. I tried that 2 years ago and I was frustrated.

Daddy loves both of us very much. I know he will try to spend as much time as he can with us but daddy is not ours alone. He need to divide his time for work, reservist, IPPT, his family, his friends (nowdays seldom) and his work activities such as training, dinner, soccer etc Anyway look at the bright side, whenever he's away am sure he will miss us. Right?

You may be wondering what mummy work as in the past.
1st job - Asst retail manager (Taking postgraduate diploma at the same time. Self study. Am about 20 years old.)
Next works in spare part company, Asst marketing manager for a spa company, Accounts assistant for a bookeeping department in a secretarial service, set up up accounting firm with your Uncle Kip (did well but I got to leave), tutor for 2 years, IT trainer, Entreprenuership trainer, IT consultant cum IT trainer and finally part time IT & Entrepreneurship trainer.

The job I love most and learn a lot when I was an IT consultant cum IT trainer. I have many reasons for leaving. The reasons are company have lot of bad debts (rumours director use for personal use), my 3 managers gave me a hard time to do my work the proper way and end up i have to work till 11pm everyday, I was requested to do a business deal which is againts my principles, a few of my assistants got fired because of office politics and end up I have to do everything by myself and it is getting to stressful for me, getting married soon and daddy works shift, have lots of ups and down with daddy so I know my work performance will be affected so decided I get our house settled and get use to new marriage life and no bonuses.

Mummy's achievement in carrier path - I get a few big deals for training which in the company's history, received testimonials from schools for my training, Malay papers did an interview on my training and was recognize as the favourite training provider by a prestigious goverment organization and I notice in a few companies my managers feel threaten by my hardwork :) I can work for more than 12 hours for years.

That's it for now. You have been a good baby. I have not much problem for the past few days. Tomorrow will be a busy day for me. I hope I will survive.

Regards
Mummy