1st Pregnancy

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Am stuck!

Dear Fa'iz Hilman,

Alhamdulillah taking care of you is getting easier. You can now play on your own. Since you turned 3 months I let you drink water using a spoon. Now you enjoy drinking water session. You used to hate drinking plain water.

Mummy feeling very confused. Whatever decision I take will make me feel stranded. I am stuck. Whatever decision I take will affect you greatly. Daddy told me to go to work and he will stay at home to take care of you. I am fine with that but I will miss you so much. I know one day I have to let you go and be independent. I cherish every moment we spent time together. My plan is to send enroll you in a childcare when you are 12 or 18 months. Most childcare in our neighbourhood accept 18 months infants. There a childcare which accept 12 months infants but I am still considering the surrounding.

I wonder if I am a fussy person. Daddy feels I have too many rules. But all those are common sense and it is for your own good. I have been doing the do's and don'ts since young. I just want the best for you. I know I am not perfect too... arghhh I can't think straight. I am sure time will fly very quickly. Once you enrolled in childcare and things will be more settled. I am worried about your family values and discipline because mummy and daddy have different expectations. Constant comments from people making it more stressful for me. I am okay people call you dark skin baby. I am worried if people kept on saying you are fat. It may cause you to have low self. Having low self esteem will make you unhappy in life. Actually you are big frame with big bones. I know you going be an attractive boy when you grow up.

I am too sleepy. I will continue next time... love you my son

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Monday, November 13, 2006

Hello...

It has been a busy week. On 12 November 2006 mummy and daddy invite our relatives and friends for doa selamat and Hari Raya bash at our house. Almost 2oo people came to our house. But sad I did not see Kakak Atikah and Aunty Hazelee. I want Aunty Hazelee to show me her funny cute face hehehehe I am happy abang Raqin and abang Uwais came. They are very smart abang-abang. Maybe next year I can play with them. Yesterday I can only watch them play and eat. Daddy and mummy had fun. Daddy happy to see all his family, relatives and friends. Mummy very happy to see all the busy international atok-atok. My atok-atok always travel here and there. Hmmmm when I can talk, I am going to scold my mummy. How can she forget to take pictures and videos? She was too busy entertaining guests. Daddy also did not take pictures. Sigh.. anyway I may not remember the event since I am still a baby. Hopefully in a few years time we can have Hari Raya Bash again. There was a lot of food. Mummy ordered Nasi beriyani masak merah and mummy also cook spaghetti. Not much food wasted. Only dalcha have a lot of left over. It was a successful event.

Oh yes.. Aunty ana and Aunty Yanti and family came to my house on Saturday. It was fun to see kakak-kakak and abang-abang playing.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UU8AYn4EIKw

Last few weeks mummy thought want to take a candid video of me talking to daddy. Mummy saw me talking to sleeping daddy. But her to her surprised... just watch the video until the end. Concentrate on the video only. Do not turn left or right just look at the screen and have a good laugh. (Daddy..don't scold mummy okay.. she capture my cute action and you tried to surprise her and now she is saboiing you heheehehe)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K7IM-lJlWLk

Did you have a good laugh? were you shocked? Mummy added some photos at photoalbum.. have fun! http://atiah.myphotoalbum.com/view_album.php?set_albumName=album17